Regarding meds, my doc (GP) strongly objects to me being medicated with any psychotropic medications, due to the risk of addiction (from benzos), discontinuation/withdrawal syndrome (of anti-depressants) etc.
He even advised against anti-psychotics.
During my recent visit to him, he stated twice that borderline personality disorder counterindicates against medication because, from what I have discovered from my research, of being comorbid with suicide *when medicated*.
Basically, a BPD person would threaten to OD on meds because the pdoc (psychiatrist) isn't competent enough to do him any good. And proof of such incompetence is giving him drugs that could kill him in the first place!
Though, in my case, I have never had therapy by a shrink nor have I ever exhibited any of the behavior that make most shrinks "give up" on BPD people.
IMHO most of the meds just "manufacture" the illness e.g. cause side effects which may be rationalized as "symptoms of the diagnosed mental disorder" by the pdoc.
Untrue. Most behaviors are side effects of the medication in that the meds amplify what were once eccentric behaviors.
I have a friend whose medication renders him able to "talk to himself" - he can hold a lucid conversation with his invisible friend, including "channelling" his "friend and his replies- which may be a drug-induced mania or psychosis and is possibly evidence of a neuroleptic being administered at a higher dose than it ought to be.
When he is off his meds, he has difficulty communicating which sometimes leaves him so frustrated he will hit inanimate objects, be it his computer monitor or dashboard of a car. This too is effect of the meds.
Prior to the meds he was shy, socially withdrawn, yet of a high intellect. The fact that he is now able to communicate more freely shows to me that he is still intelligent. However, he requires therapy but avoids it - he even avoided meditation training while initially hospitalized.
What really works for me for therapy is sleep: benadryl 50 mg when I absolutely want sleep.
However, what really works is marijuana. 2 puffs and my sleep cycle is normalized for 48 hours. After 48 hours, the chronic insomnia is back with a vengeance. However, I do not take marijuana regularly because my roommates have noticed my sleep behavior.
The good news is, I am of the 75% of people who is not negatively affected by 9-THC i.e. no psychosis, no hallucinations, no mania.
In contrast, the first time I took two 50 mg of Gravol I had a minor "trip". So I am strict with the benadryl.
As of December 23, 2012, I only take gabapentin and flexeril - been taking both for about a year and it is better than mirtazapine.
I only use benedryl in emergencies.
As of now I only have cetirizine for the case of flu, when every breath is filled with mucus and wheezing.
Other than that, I feel that I am less incapacitated by my curren nightly dose of 100 mg gabapentin and 10 mg of flexeril.
This reigiment follows my Less is More philosophy towards drugs of all kinds.
For I believe strongly that the more is better philoosphy is deadly.
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