"God Have Mercy on Me A Sinner"

Each and every day I have had moments where a deep spiritual experience overpowers me for but a moment.

During that time, it is as though God is working through me. Yet I fear God with the obedient respect a Zen disciple pays to his master.

In this moment of clarity of mind, my words do not come easily. For I want to choose my words carefully to explain that I am going through a series of spiritual experiences, which are emotionally uplifting and awe-inspiring.

Years ago, I had this wrong-minded thought that God is part of a duality of good and evil.

Today, I admit that what made such a thought wrong was believing that the Author of good and evil was part of a duality. Instead, I believe God is Creator, and has the power to make things whole.

Since my faith in Him grows with each day, and although my mood may sometimes leave me in doubt, God will always be there for me.

This faith I have in God does not conflict with my Buddhist roots at all, for Buddhism has inculcated in me through meditation the clarity of mind to widen my faith to accept God into my life.

As a Buddhist, I do not worship the Buddha as a god but as the teacher of a useful skill called meditation to cut through spiritual delusion, and to develop the ability to have a strong and enduring faith to enrich my spiritual life.

My growing faith in God does not mean I reject Buddhism, but instead will enrich my spiritual life with a time-honoured tradition with roots extending to an ageless time.

This is not the case of serving two masters, but the opportunity to see that I am willing to let go and let God empower me to be worthy of His undying Love for me.

For God knows what is on my mind and what is in my heart. As a sinner, all I ask of Him is have mercy on me.