Trauma in My Life

I believe that my first traumatic experience is related to adapting to Western culture, and the byproduct of it are these weird dreams.

I feel insecure in life because Western culture puts no pressure on me to conform, yet unconsciously social pressures to conform are present.

This is a kind of schizophregenic double-bind. Indeed, I feel that society generally is the root of schizophrenia. This is not a paranoid feeling, but a rationalization to explain my state of mind.