Please Read Before You Kill Yourself (satire)

This is an open letter to any teenager who thinks about suicide all the time.

Sometimes when I read about a teenager wanting to kill herself, I wonder how horrible her life must be to obsess about suicide. Yet I always hold back from asking those pertinent questions out of respect for her privacy.

Instead, I provide emotional support by stating clearly that I have faith she will keep on living, despite her depression and dark outlook on her own life.

She might even write, "You don't know how much I hurt inside."

That makes me hurt inside. Just reading it makes me wince. However, it doesn't make me want to kill myself.

Why does she have a death wish? Is life so horrible she can't keep on living?

It makes me angry to see teenagers in this state of mind. Yet I know the suicidal are beautiful people who have lost hope.

"Beautiful? But I feel ugly inside."

So do things that make you feel beautiful. Stop obsessing about the dark and be embraced by the light of all the people who care about you.

You don't want to? Then, please, make the effort to choose non-violent ways of dealing with your emotional pain, including medication and therapy.

When you hurt, I hurt. You see, I used to have fleeting thoughts about suicide, but lack the guts to follow through. I am actually very glad I lack that kind of "courage".

For it repulses me to think of death as the only solution to a wretched life. Yet I carry on, because my life isn't focused on darkness, and - clichéd as it sounds - I have seen the light.

Life might not seem pretty, but it's better to remain alive, even when you hurt.

Why? Because there are more reasons to stay alive than to kill yourself. Though the best one is, you have many people who don't want you to throw your life away so foolishly.

In fact, you just telling all of us you want to kill yourself shows to me how much you want a reason to stay alive. We'll miss you if you leave so suddenly without even giving your life a chance to get through this crisis.

While you live, I feel sorry about your suffering. If you choose to kill yourself, then I will only feel anger at the fact you chose to end your life rather than finding a non-violent solution to your suffering.

I might even miss you if we had share a few messages with me holding your hand, so to speak.

However, it is impossible to pity the dead and feel sorry for the unliving. There is only a terrible loss of life, and perhaps someone I'll miss.

My only question is, "Why not love yourself?" For your life is precious enough for you to love.

However, if you think your death will make me feel sorry for you, then you're wrong. For I feel nothing but unconditional love for you from the bottom of my heart. The sad refrain that "Nobody loves me" becomes a lie because now I have declared my unconditional love for you.

It makes no difference if you reject my love; for love is what inspires me to write these words.

Why Amanda Todd Killed Herself (satire)

this article isn't for the formalism of a normal article. so i'm not going to capitalize the appropriate words for the politically correct people.

anyway, i have sided with both parties in this tragic series of events. it was a teen suicide, which is a rising statistic among teens today, mainly due to unhealthy practices of self esteem raising in the public education system without the necessary checks and balances of exposing children to a wide range of ages in school.

all we do to children is raise them to be compliant workers, nothing more.

having said this, i don't believe public education is broken. i believe the government has broken it for us. with the incessant drive to make money, we are forgetting key values that my generation and the generations before it taught but that the modern world mocks.

this is also why more seniors are also committing suicide at growing rates too. all an old person has to do to die early is to be subject to care in an elderly care facility, and subject to chemical restraints for dementia when the best relief for dementia is daily exercise and the feeling of being useful in a society that focuses unhealthily on youth.

which brings us to Amanda Todd, the poster girl of online bullying, cyberstalking, and other maladies within this youth culture today.

last year we slut shamed miley cyrus, that irish girl, and amanda todd, among many other girls too numerous to name.

i don't have any respect for the shamers and the haters. you take your morally high ground today, but yesterday you might have been surfing for porn.

hypocrisy!

i could think of many reasons why amanda todd killed herself: the wrong people were paying attention to her, the cretins who mocked her and goaded her into killing herself, the perverts who wanted to have sex with her, and especially of all the lack of quality time with parents in an intact family.

however blame never solves anything. this is why the kody maxson outing as her so-called tormenter is off the mark. the real culprit is everyone who wished amanda would pick a better bleach next time.

people who want kids, before you even have one, remember this:

the internet will never be a safe place until you daily live the moral values you want your future children to have. so if you're a mouth breather on the Daily Capper, watching the crap on cameracapper, then i urge you, don't have kids. if you do, sell your computer.

over the years i have been many youtube account go stagnant when a pervert has scared a kid off the site. why? she's in grade school but she looks and acts 18.

all you perverts do is ruin the internet. without self control, all you have is your internet.

i pity you because without the internet you are nothing, a nobody, a bunch of people who would watch a person drown instead of saving her, because that's what you did from 2010 to 2012 as you watched this tragedy unfold and refused to help because nobody wants to be a hero or a blackmailer.

of course, given that the NSA is monitoring the Internet, and the FBI too, i wonder if the real reason why capping isn't exposed is because they are gathering evidence right now as we speak.

i supposed that's why nobody discusses it on googeplus. instead,everyone patted themselves on the back for stopping bullying.

out of all the kids that detest the bullying of amanda todd, few of them are brave enough to start an anti-bullying club in their school. that's because they're trained to be an audience, not a participant in society. public education has serve us so well.

what does that say about public education today?

me, i think the best role model for young girls online is not amanda todd, it's the porn star at duke university. at least, she's not drinking bleach, slitting her wrists or hanging herself.

Marilyn Monroe: Unwitting Victim or Witting Agent of Destiny?

Does Marilyn Monroe represent a healthy ideal of American womanhood or hide a fear of hysteria among young American women today?

IMO Monroe presented a false facade of childlike innocence which actually hid her own personal fear of ending up in a mental hospital like her mother.

Thus, she is representative of a small minority of women whose mothers were taken advantage of by men.

However, Monroe's strategies that she employed through her many characters movies actually represents the fantasies of men about sexual stereotypes of women.

As well, her "dumb blonde" stereotypes are actually a clever facade designed to fool men, and sometimes women, into believing her to be more naîve than she actually was.

Yes, it was all an act. However, it is more likely that she was being taken advantage of by men, and doing tit for tat subtly.

I also see self deception at work in some of her characters, which suggests willingness to deceive oneself about the reality of the situation in order to escape anxiety about one's place in the world.

Even though Monroe appears to be a witting pawn of men, she too is a witting manipulator of men whose demeanor is a beautiful distraction from the fear all women have to face about destiny.


For Marilyn Monroe was especially afraid that she might end up mad in a mental hospital like her mother. My theory about why her mother ended up there is simplistic: she was taken advantage of by Marilyn's father and was not emotionally supported by her own mother (Marilyn's grandmother) due to her lifestyle.

Indeed, there is enough evidence to suggest her behavior from puberty to her death as indicative of child abuse. Furthermore, even though Marilyn's mother Gladys Baker was known to be mentally unstable, the etiology of her mental illness was never mentioned, probably due to a health respect about privacy of women with obvious signs of madness.

My guess is, Gladys Baker too might have been abused as a child. However, a clue appears in the early life of Marilyn Monroe when her maternal grandfather, Otis Elmer Monroe died of syphilis of the brain in 1909. He had been institutionalized at a mental hospital the previous year.

Thus the root of Gladys Baker's madness is syphilis, which was common around and before the turn of the 20th Century. As well, the death of a sibling may have been a childhood trauma which affected her deeply, and lead me to suspect that her own family were affected by their son's death.

As well, a history of depression runs in the family as Gladys' brother committed suicide after being let out of a mental asylum, and a grandfather committed suicide after struggling with depression.

Evidence of little or no emotional support appears when young Norma Jean Baker is rejected by her grandmother Della when Gladys Baker is rebuffed by her attempts to get her mother to look after the child.

As well, Marilyn Monroe's later characterization as thinking her first foster father, Albert Bollender, was a woman either indicates a hilarious story played for laughs, or the possible evidence that the foster father might have been either a cross dresser or closet homosexual who married in order to keep up appearances.

In actual fact, there is no Albert. Mr. Bollender's name was actually Wayne Bolender. Thus, the wikipedia entry below is full of inaccuracies.

Overall, Marilyn Monroe's early life as a child of the 1930s and early war era lacks a strong father figure, which is essential to a woman's character and adult emotional stability. Indeed, a healthy relationship with men may be maintained when a girl is free of childhood abuse and trauma, and a father or substitute father figure establishes and maintains a healthy role in her life.

I see little evidence of this occurring in young Norma Jean Baker's life before puberty. However, I see evidence that the future Marilyn Monroe adapted well to the lack of a father in her life.

Even so, the victimization of Monroe by her doctor led to her death from barbiturate poisoning. Her difficulties before her death are indicative of drug abuse, abuse that was facilitated by a doctor who may have overprescribed.

Merci Marilyn! Tu as joué le partie bien.


Reference:
Early life of Marilyn Monroe: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Early_life_of_Marilyn_Monroe

50 Playboy pictures of Marilyn Monroe hid from us: http://coed.com/2012/11/19/50-rarely-seen-marilyn-monroe-playboy-photos-in-celebration-of-the-nude-marilyn/#photoid=44

Marilyn Monroe on Marilyn documentary: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyWW0bDnY28
In this documentary, you hear Marilyn Monroe's story in her own words.

A Tout Le Monde (Set Me Free) Feat. Cristina Scabbia - Music Video by Megadeth

Before I comment on this song, I wish to make the following disclaimer: I do not endorse suicide and thus am not responsible for any life-threatening choices made by anyone who reads this post.

According to Dave Mustaine, this song is actually Megadeath's contribution to people healing from the death of a loved one.

Even so, MTV still banned this song lest a suicidal person aspire to be set free.

IMHO Megadeath officially does not have respect for such suicides mainly because of the myths that suicidal people are cowards.

I have no doubt that such disrespect for suicide might inspire those people contemplating it to get pissed off and tragically end their lives.

Thus, suicide is the end result of rage at the hopelessness of their existence, which has been painted darkly both in the media and by misinformed people, including a few survivors.

Since I am of the opinion that the depression that precedes suicide is suppressed rage, suicide prevention requires informing and showing the depressed of the many alternatives which provide a fulfilling platform where they are heard, listened to, and consequently discreetly asked to rethink their final solution.

Indeed, suicide is one option which should only be taken IF AND ONLY IF it would promote a sympathetic pro-active movement to remedy the pain and thus prevent the possibility of copycats (humane euthanization).

My reaction to suicide is this: the fanciful wish that the ghosts of suicide victims haunt whoever the victim may claim is responsible for their demise.

If it is proven that the victim only has herself to blame, then the people responsible for saying so are irresponsible since each and every lack of sympathy by bystanders may have precipitated the crisis leading to suicide.

Such carelessness shown by a person's peers might result in a preventable tragedy.

However, the questions I will pose to potential suicide victims are: how can you throw your life away so easily? Why can't you save your life, which is so precious and beautiful? Can you see that whatever method you choose to end it all might not dignify your death?

FWIW, I feel that death by fentanyl which cancer victims choose is more dignified than a gun, jumping off a bridge or building, slit wrists, and hanging. This is because self-inflicted violence often is morally reprehensible to me i.e. each method desecrates the body and may cause unnecessary suffering.

However, death by drugs are also a desecration if the victim suffers. IMHO this is why death by a combination of opioids and another drug that amplifies the opioid's effect on breathing is cleaner than other methods. As well, government regulations make it difficult to obtain such drugs.

Returning to this song, Dave Mustaine appeared to disrespect Kimveer Gill in his response to the speculation by armchair journalists that the song inspired his mass school killing of one innocent victim and the wounding of 19 bystanders.

Yet I do not feel that Mustaine was disrespecting Gill as he was actually telling off the speculators.

By writing this article, my intent to show that the suicidal have suppressed their rage against the world so much that death is preferable to living in a world that consistently oppresses men for being gentle and good people like Kimveer Gill used to be before the three weeks of hell that he chose to live prior to his tragic end.

Ultimately, a suicide victim is often the victim of his short-sighted choices. Thus, suicide is the end result of self-victimization, made in isolation from the society that he chooses to condemn through his violent act of death by suicide.

Finally, let me against state clearly that I do not endorse suicide and thus am not responsible for any life-threatening choices made by anyone who reads this post.

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References:

Original posted: November 7, 2012 1045H
Update edited : February 26, 2013 2114H

December 6th Should be a Canadian National Day of Awareness of Child and Domestic Abuse: http://gandhara.blogspot.com/2007/12/december-6th-should-be-canadian.html

Things I Learned From Seung-hui Cho: < href=http://gandhara.blogspot.com/2007/04/things-ive-learned-from-seung-cho.html>http://gandhara.blogspot.com/2007/04/things-ive-learned-from-seung-cho.html

I'm Glad I'm a Nobody: http://gandhara.blogspot.com/2007/04/i-am-glad-i-am-nobody.html

Argument against Suicide

Suicide is based on the false premise that one's life is so worthless, one escapes from the shame of it by suicide.

To counter this argument, I say that one is suffering from a delusion in which one thinks one's life is worthless, and that it is brought about by negative reaction to one's quality of life.

Usually one is alone and cut off from social life, or at the least, from spiritual worship, which requires a respected priest, minister, or loved one.

At the root of depression is the feeling of being unloved, yet one also denies oneself self love.

Then the antidote contains loving kindness.

One learns through prayer and meditation to love oneself just for today.

I add to that God loves all who love Him, yet it is unconditional love. I won't go further than this because it's the topic of reigion forum.

Secularism is at the root of depression as its practice leads to mental unrest.

Religious practice is at the root of depression's cure or its secular analog, psychotherapy.

It also helps to have faith that God loves you, or if atheistic and/or agnostic, that faith in true love implies that suicide is based on self hatred.

When we learn to love ourselves, that is the path out of depression away from all thought of suicide.

Love is not the cause of despair; rather, it is the duality of love and hate

"...In Italy, a country very far away from us, people are still driven to despair by love." - Stendahl, in The Charterhouse of Parma

At this point in the novel, Stendahl is explaining the suicide of one of the main characters to his French audience.

However, he is also trying to justify his character's suicide by "blaming" love.

It is not love that drives the suicidal, nor does love motivate their path of self-destruction. Rather, it is the duality of love and hate which influences their life choices.


For the challenge is for people to resolve this duality sufficiently to live long, peaceful lives.

Early use of SSRIs may worsen emotional disturbance

Mice treated with the antidepressant Prozac early in life grow into adults with emotional problems, a new report concludes.

Whether the drug has the same effect on people is unknown. But the result will add to the growing debate over what risks Prozac (fluoxetine) and similar SSRI drugs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) pose for young children and unborn babies.

'If they really need these drugs, people should take them. They can be life savers,' says Jay Gingrich, a psychiatrist at Columbia University in New York City, US, who led the research. 'But it is a little bit alarming to find they might carry risks that aren't apparent until later in life.'

Researchers began injecting mice with fluoxetine four days after birth until they were 21 days old. Nine weeks after their last injection, the adult animals were given a series of behavioural tests designed to assess their level of anxiety and depression.

The team found that rodents who received drug as newborns were more intimidated by new surroundings and moved more slowly to avoid painful shocks compared to controls. 'They are more inhibited in novel situations,' says Gingrich. 'Extrapolating to people, we'd say the mice are showing symptoms of anxiety and depression or emotional problems.'

With more and more children being given SSRIs to treat socially inappropriate behaviors, the risks associated with emotional disturbances amongst young adults is increasing at alarming rates.

Although children on SSRIs may no more likely to experience a brief psychotic episode than children with a substance abuse disorder, the increased risk of self-harm and/or harm to others does not justify increased use of SSRIs to moderate socially inappropriate behaviors.

Rather, it appears that the use of SSRIs is merely another method of regulating children's behavior, and is not unlike the use of TV and video games in that the parents may choose the relative peace to actual pro-activeparticipation in their children's lives.

Indeed, studies have shown that parents who actively participate in their children's lives also aid in moderating their children's behavior such that socially inappropriate syndromes are easily moderated.

So yes, getting involved in their children's lives is more effective than Paxil and Ritalin.

LSD use never leads to suicide, but may be "one straw too many."

I was musing about a question posted by a certain Psychfo contributer, one of many members of Craigslist. She asked about a friend who died after taking LSD. I denied that LSD contributed to that kid committing suicide.

However LSD could have indirectly led to him accidentally killing himself by being a dumbass. LSD appears to open one up to the concept of non-self i.e. that we're not narcissistic individuals trying to look out for number one, ME. This appears to cause an LSD user to question his or her meaning of existence. As a result of indiscriminate drug use, this existential challenge may lead to one straw too many on the camel's back for the user, regardless of her age.

Sometimes, the ravages of teenage hormones might end up with the kid psychotic, but LSD is not the cause of the ensuing diagnosis, be it schizophrenia or a mood disorder. Rather, LSD, like other recreational drugs, are tools put into the wrong hands. Such drugs are neither harmful nor deadly except to an ignorant kid who has no clue about the pharmacology and toxicology of illegal substance use.

How the Tibetan Book of the Dead fits into this is that prior to DEA's demonization of entheogens such as LSD and MDMA, they were used therapeutically by shrinks and therapists. The near-death experience provided by LSD, peyote, MDMA and even GHB is a powerful therapeutic tool. By making such entheogens illegal, the DEA has turned such tools into another way to uncover probable mental illness in children.

Then they are given potentially dangerous psychoactive drugs such as Prozac, which might result in a neuroleptic malignacy(sp?) syndrome and might even cause a worsening of symptoms including the rise of another disorder such as OCD. In truth, illegal drugs do not make kids crazy.

IMHO They'd be crazy soon enough from working crazy hours full-time once they turn 18. :p

What might make kids crazy is being given powerful psychoactive meds in an attempt to manufacture another schizophrenic, another MDD case, another OCD hand-wringer, another ODD-CD delinquent.

IMHO Meds and kids don't mix. YMMV

"Blind Date" leads to tragedy

BEIJING -- A 17-year-old boy in northeastern China was so disappointed with the looks of a woman he met over the Internet that he hanged himself after seeing her face-to-face, state media reported Friday.

The unnamed teenager first contacted the woman -- known by her chat moniker "Qunjiaofeiyang", or "Flying Skirt" -- using the popular Chinese online messaging software QQ, Xinhua news agency said.

The girl described herself as a beautiful 19-year-old and the pair chatted on the Web for weeks before arranging a December 26 rendezvous in the nearby city of Mudanjiang, in far northeastern Heilongjiang province.

The boy arrived to discover the woman far less attractive than advertised and 10 years older than him, Xinhua said.

The boy immediately returned home, lost his appetite, and four days later hanged himself from a tree.

OP note: This is a pic of the woman known as Qunjiaofeiyang. She looks plain but not ugly.